Yahoo 360 Blog – Part 3 Reflections

Rachel's Smiling Mug
Just a selfie of me with light makeup on and my favourite orange fall scarf. One of my favourite things.

Reading over my old blogs, there are tons of questions and very little answers.  During that time of my life, I felt totally alone and lost.  I cling to the hope that my life would get better and my anxiety would go away.  I desperately wanted to know that my mental health would improve and I would get my old life back. Unbeknownst to me, it will never be the same.

I wanted to blog about my feelings, put them out into the world and see what others thought, instead of holding it all inside and being brave.  Well, I am not that brave.  I think to post my feelings after the fact is sad really.  I was just tired of bottling up my feelings and trying to figure them out myself.  I think really that is why I get so sick with anxiety and worry.  Hence this blog.  Trying to share more with the world, after it has given me so much.   Continue reading

Yahoo 360 Blog Posts Found

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Sorry, these are all I found from that period of my life. Please note that Mark & I called it Quits in the Winter of 2015.  I told myself it was over and I made it so.  So currently, I am dating a wonderful man named David.  So far no fights and I have known him about a year and half by now.  ( hmmm…)

I found this blog while cleaning out my computer.  It was a great find.  I thought I would share it with the world. However, some of these memories are painful and hard to explain.  Keep in mind when reading these posts, know that they are really old over 10 years old, and I would like to remind people that I am not the same person, and I have grown and learned from these experiences. Continue reading

Old Website Post from my deleted Blogger Account

This post was originally put on a blogger Account, I never really posted anything on it other than this.  Originally posted Sept 11, 2010. So I dated it then.  I felt right .  So here it is!

 

Hi guys, I am new to blogging and I thought I would try putting one here before I converted an existing website to a blog using word-press.  I am an artist, World of Warcraft player, and a website designer.

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Yahoo 360 Blog Found – Part 1

Old posted I found while cleaning my computer, I think it was nice to post them.  They contain my thoughts and feelings, no harm is intended for anyone mentioned in them.

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Unemployed & Figuring My Next Move

Originally Posted on Monday, July 24, 2006 – 10:08 am (EDT)

I am currently unemployed and looking for work.
I decided to work on my own personal website today… I am going to add some links
and try to get some graphics made for my webaholics. Please feel free to join my forum. It has been up for several weeks and I haven’t seen any new posts.

Unfortunately, I gave up on Webaholics. I found other projects that interested me more interesting projects took over, and I let it die.

I am thinking seriously of trying to get some website work but don’t know where to look. Any ideas? Just wondering?

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Yahoo 360 Blog Found – Part 2

Old posted I found while cleaning my computer, I think it was nice to post them.  They contain my thoughts and feelings, no harm is intended for anyone mentioned in them.

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Calling all Angels…

Originally Posted on Tuesday, February 27, 2007 – 12:34 pm (EST)

I am so depressed, I can’t eat, want to sleep a lot and wish I could feel good about myself.
Mark and I are fighting a lot, and he moved to his mother’s house. It is all I can do to keep myself motivated to do something, anything. I mean anything productive.

Well, I could use some support from friends. Someone to talk to about me. I could use a good cry…. Whaa….

Rachel

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